Posts from the Pregnancy Category

I put my sewing machine and all my quilty patchwork works in progress away the other day in a nesting frenzy. I sew on the dining room table, and while I keep my things pretty tidy while I’m working in there (we have to eat at the table too!) it was just stressing me out a little bit having “stuff everywhere.” So I packed it all up until after baby gets here.

But I can’t just… not make stuff. So I’ve picked up my cross stitch again. It’s nice and small and portable and easy to hide away when I’m not working on it. And it’s fun to work on while laying on the couch with Greg while he watches TV.

I stitched up a super cute floss bobbin from The Frosted Pumpkin Stitchery’s Bobbin Party! pattern. This guy is going to make his way onto a zippy pouch once I decide to pull the sewing machine out again.

And I’ve picked up the lovely Winterwoods ABCs Sampler from Alicia Paulson again. I started with the boots because they are just the cutest ever! Everything about this kit is gorgeous. I especially love all the hand-dyed, variegated flosses. Everything Alicia makes is the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen. If you’ve never read her blog, you should. It’s one of my favorites of all time.

I’m putting this and a knitting project into my hospital bag for when baby decides to get here. I’m dreading my hospital stay for some reason. Maybe I’m just nervous about the whole labor thing. I’ve been in the very beginning of “active labor” for a few days and it hasn’t been very fun. It’s going super slowly and I’m really tired and yucky feeling, which is different from last time. I just want things to get going and to get on with it! Come on baby, I want to kiss you and smell your head! ♥

I’ll be 39 weeks on Friday. I feel gigantic, my feet are swollen, my back hurts and I can’t seem to sleep anymore (what’s up I’ve been awake since 3:45am!) so I’m starting to get a little impatient. I’m normally a great sleeper, so I don’t know what to do when I’m wide awake all by myself in the middle of the night for hours. Insomniacs, what do you do? Should I go downstairs and start watching Netflix? Clean? Cook? Work on a cross-stitch project or something? I usually just lay in my bed Googling stuff or playing word games on my phone trying to make myself drowsy.

Last night during my unslumber (yeah, just made that word up) I learned that I should eat around 2200 calories per day while breastfeeding! That seems like so much. I also learned how I should enter breast feeding into My Fitness Pal. I’m super gung ho on nursing successfully this time, since I didn’t produce like, anything with Vada and she was starving and not gaining weight regardless of me nursing her pretty much non-stop. I think that most likely happened because I wasn’t consuming enough calories. I would always forget to eat. A lot of times I just… don’t get hungry. I’ll just feel like shit all of a sudden and by then I feel too yucky to want to eat. It’s stupid.

I have a doctors appointment tomorrow. Hopefully we’ve made some progress! Last week I was at 2cm, which was exciting because I was only at a 2 with Vada after hours of consistant, hard contractions. So far I’ve only had a few “good” contractions here and there, but nothing exciting.

Everything is pretty much in order and ready, so I feel like I kind of just wander around cleaning things and staring into space all day, just… waiting.

Besides the impatience, I’m still feeling really positive about this pregnancy and about having a newborn. Sometimes I get a little nervous about the whole labor/delivery thing, but most days I’m just excited to meet this little girl. I’m feeling like I might not have to deal with stupid PPD again. I plan on asking my doctor tomorrow to sort of harass me about it at my postpartum checkup. Last time I lied and said everything was fine when really I was totally sad and my anxiety was through the roof! Last time was a really, really big (HUGE) change from my normal life, though. And I mean, obviously it will be a change adding a newborn to the mix, but at least I have an idea of what to expect. With Vada, I went from working in the public and living with a bunch of roommates to being pretty much all alone, all the time, completely inexperienced as a mother with a colicky infant. It wasn’t good. I think I’ve got it this time, though. And if I don’t (you never know what those crazy hormones will do) then I’m not afraid to ask for help.

I’m looking forward to this weekend, hopefully the last one before baby gets here. If she decides she’s ready to hang out this weekend, I’m into that, too! I’m ready for the next phase. ♥

PS – Tomorrow this tiny tater tot turns THREE!!!

sweet dreams

I’m still (very slowly) working on the baby’s nursery. All the necessities are there, it’s just the decorating part that needs work. I’d probably have more finished by now but I just haven’t been feeling very well lately. I’ve been all first-trimester queasy and exhausted. I asked the nurse about it at my last checkup and she said it’s most likely hormonal. Hormones are building back up in preparation for labor, which sometimes causes those first trimester symptoms again (although usually not as bad.) Fun… It’s ok though, it forces me to take it easy and rest. Mother nature is smart!

It’s also taken me a while to get going because for a long time I had no idea what direction to go in. I didn’t even know what colors I wanted. So I just keep adding, taking away, rearranging, finding new stuff, switching it around… It’s starting to come together a little bit better now.

Since we won’t really be using the crib for a little while anyway, I’m kind of using it as a big mood board. It’s a safe spot for all the extra decorations and art, and keeps the stupid cat from sleeping in there!

I need to get more frames so I can hang the rest of this art. (WHY can’t we have an IKEA closer than three hours away?) I’m also planning on constructing a mobile to hang over the crib. I have everything pulled out, just need to build it. If things go as planned, it should be really pretty. And I want to spice up the plain white curtains a little bit. Maybe add a rug, get a new ceiling fan or lamp, paint a small accent wall… and then I think I’ll be done.

Then maybe I’ll get the inspiration to finish Vada’s room! I can’t seem to figure out what I want to do in there. Decorating is hard. ♥

It’s funny to me how differently I feel about this pregnancy compared to my last. Not symptom-wise (pretty much exactly the same as last time as far as that goes) but just the way I feel emotionally toward this next baby. I was so wishy-washy and sooo nervous when it came to deciding whether or not we would try for a second. (I wrote about it on Danielle’s blog a long time ago.) But then once I found out I was pregnant (which happened pretty much immediately after the decision had been made) all those worries went completely away.

I feel so carefree about this baby and pregnancy, I almost think I should be feeling a little guilty about it. With Vada, I was researching, planning, decorating, making stuff, worrying about every single little detail of everything. (Freaking out.) I guess it has to be that I have some experience and know what I’m getting myself into this time. Well, I know what it’s like to have one super sensitive, colicky infant, anyway. I’ve never had an infant and a three-year-old at the same time, but Vada is going to be the best big sister and mommy’s helper ever, I just know it.

Maybe she’s the one giving me the confidence this time around. She already loves her sister so much – it’s the sweetest thing ever. She can’t wait for the baby to get here, and tells everyone about how she’s going to be a “BIG SISTER!” She wants to make her a birthday cake! :) She talks about how the baby is going to be “soooo cuuuuuute” and how she wants to rock her and read her stories and make her happy and teach her everything. I love it. I can’t wait to see them both together.

Only +/- 5 weeks! ♥

I’ve got a little longer than six more weeks to go until my due date. Maybe the baby is going through a super growth spurt or something, but it seems like out of nowhere, I went from being super energized to holy-crap-I-need-to-lay-down-for-a-minute. It’s not too bad, I’m just getting bigger and having a harder time doing everything I am used to doing all the time.

Besides being a little pooped out, things have been really great. Our garden beds are full of plants and I can’t wait to eat millions of tomatoes in a few months. I’ve been knitting a lot (my new obsession.) Cold pressed iced coffee is back in my life and I love it so much… I’ve just been enjoying all of the little everyday things that make me so happy, making sure to  have a good time before the sleep deprivation comes :) ♥

I started decorating the nursery a little bit today. I don’t have a theme or anything, or even a color scheme really. I just kind of rearranged some things over and over until it started to look the way I wanted it to. I am using all of the same furniture that was in there when it was Vada’s room, but I’ve moved things around a little bit to make it feel new. I got different curtains and I’m changing almost all of the previous nursery decor. Most of it has been moved into Vada’s new room anyway, since it is her stuff after all. I’m starting to feel happy with this new little happy place :) ♥

Things have been very nice lately.

We had a lot of visitors last week – Greg’s dad came for two days, my sister visited for a few, and my parents came for Easter weekend. I love having company and having people around all the time. Sometimes I wish we could have roommates again.

Easter was fun and a little bit lazy. I hid eggs all over the house for Vada to find throughout the day. Each one had some Hello Kitty stickers and one jelly bean inside. She loved it! Next year I think the Easter Bunny will be bringing Vada some granola and dried fruit, or maybe a DIY “Edible Arrangement” as her basket because apparently candy makes her psychotic. My mom made everyone these huge Easter baskets full of everything Easter-y. Vada ate some jelly beans and some chocolate eggs and stuff.. I’ve never seen her act SO CRAZY before, running around everywhere like a spaz. At one point she was just shaking her head around making weird noises. Then about 30 minutes later she completely crashed and then laid down on the couch. I donated most of the leftover Easter candy to the guys at Press Press, hopefully they like Peeps.

I’ve started getting things ready for baby a little bit more. (Only 9 more weeks until her due date!) I sorted through all of Vada’s old baby clothes and pulled out everything from 0-12 months. I put them in the wash and now I just need to fold them all up into her dresser drawers. I also ordered her a few new little onesies and summer outfits… Getting excited!

We planted a few veggies into our raised beds. It’s still a little bit too early here for the summer stuff like tomatoes and peppers (we had to cover the gardens last night for a freeze warning) so right now we’ve got cooler weather veggies: brussels sprouts, broccoli, cauliflower and three different types of lettuce. They are still little baby plants, but seem really happy in their new home. I can’t wait to make a salad from lettuce we grew in our backyard! We also got a few herbs – chives, parsley, basil, dill and lavender. I’m not really sure what I’m going to do with lavender, but it just smells so good! I still want to get some mint and rosemary out there, too.

Greg’s still been working a lot lately (like until midnight every weekday and working weekends, too) but my nights haven’t been too lonely since I’ve been teaching myself to knit (again.) I’ve been practicing and practicing – it sure does pass the time. And it really relaxes me, too. I can see now why so many people knit. My ultimate goal is to get really good and learn to knit lacy stuff, like this pretty baby blanket. Lacy legwarmers would be super nice for wintertime, too. Are you on Ravelry? Will you be my friend?

My previous pregnancy rage seems to have turned into a sort of happy laziness. Not that I’ve been lazy at all, but I’ve just been… not trying to do too much. I guess a better word would be “leisurely.” And it’s really working out. Imagine that. ♥

Lately, I realized I’ve been kind of letting myself go. I tend to do that when I’m pregnant, because even when I really try to look nice, I still usually just feel like a big oaf anyway. So my hair was looking all crazy and disheveled, my color was faded out to this nasty brassy reddish brown with gold highlights, and I was almost out of all of my makeup. I don’t like buying myself clothes when I’m pregnant, because I feel like it’s a big waste of money, so I get by wearing cheapy, pilled Target Mossimo dresses every single day. It’s bad. I was looking and feeling really ugly.

So I decided it was time to treat myself to a few goodies and get out of this hideous rut. I started by toning my hair back to a normal, natural human hair color. Note: I’m a licensed cosmetologist, so I know what I’m doing, and recommend NOT coloring your own hair.

In case you’re interested in this stuff, Redken Shades EQ is my preferred brand of toner. I wanted a natural, cool level 7, so I mixed equal parts 06T and 08N and love the way it turned out. I had never used any of the titanium line, and was a little nervous putting a combination of grey, blue, violet and brown on my head, but I’m happy I went with my gut, and also happy that I still “have it” in the color department. (Color was always my favorite part of doing hair.) The new color alone made me feel 100 times better.

I also started using a new shampoo and conditioner – Sebastian Penetraitt, which are really moisturizing, but don’t weigh my hair down. (I have fine hair and I’m obsessed with having lots of volume, so it’s hard to find a moisturizing shampoo that doesn’t make my hair go flat.) I’m a big fan of Sebastian shampoos and conditioners. I’ve used a lot of different variations, depending on my hair “needs” at the time. I think they all smell really nice and they make my hair happy.

Then I finally used the Sephora gift card my brother gave me for Christmas and ordered myself some new makeup. I got some new stuff that I had been meaning to try, and now I’ve got some new winners in my daily routine!

Smashbox Camera Ready BB Cream – I’ve read a lot about BB creams and their magic and really wanted to try one out. I decided to go with Smashbox, because I had been using their Color Correcting Primer (in Color Blend) for a long time and was really happy with it. BB cream is like a do-it-all makeup primer. It’s like a moisturizer, primer, concealer and foundation in one. My skin is sensitive and super break-out prone if I use the wrong products, and I usually don’t do well with liquid foundations, but this stuff really does the trick without breaking me out! It covers more than a tinted moisturizer, but less than a full-on liquid foundation, which I love. I use Fair, since I’m pretty pale, and it’s the perfect tone for my skin. Try BB cream!

Malin + Goetz Detox Face Mask – I splurged on this after Anna and Jen were talking about it on Twitter. Anna described it as a “pore vacuum” so I had to try it out. My skin feels cleaner and softer than ever after using this stuff. I’m definitely interested in trying out some other Malin + Goetz products.

I’ve been using this Mustela 9 Months Double Action Stretch Mark Cream since I got pregnant. I didn’t get any stretch marks when I was pregnant with Vada, and I don’t want to get any this time, either!

I love Nars blushes, especially Orgasm, which is a perfect peachy pink. I ordered myself Nico, which is more of a highlighter, and I really like it. It’s super, super subtle, but somehow just makes me look… prettier. It’s a little hard to explain. Try it on at the store and you’ll see what I mean.

One day I’d love to try growing my lashes with Latisse. My lashes are long enough, but I want the longest lashes ever. I thought a new eyelash curler might help me out, and a few people suggested this Shiseido curler – it definitely makes a difference. Much better than my normal Revlon lash curler.

I also got some Diorshow Iconic Mascara, which is really nice. It lengthens and thickens, it’s super dark and easy to apply, and is an overall great mascara. I’m still on the lookout for a magical mascara that will make my eyelashes look freakishly long, though. Any recommendations are appreciated!

And last but not least, I got a refill of my favorite makeup product in the world, MAC Mineralize Skin Finish Natural in Light Plus. I have been using this for years and it’s the best powder ever.

All this new girly stuff has definitely gotten me out of my ugly rut. I was feeling so fancy, I even bought myself two new dresses (same dress, both colors) some gold gladiators, and a pair of sparkly loafers.

I think I love shopping again. This could mean trouble. ♥

I start my third trimester on Friday, and oh boy can I feel it! Remember 7 weeks ago when I said I was confused because I felt a lot crazier last pregnancy? It seems I spoke too soon. I am just a huge (literally) ball of hormones/emotions. It’s like I have PMS x 1,000 for… 3 more months. I cried five days in a row last week. I keep freaking out at Greg over the most mundane things. I feel really bad about it and I really do try to control myself, but I just SNAP. In my normal, non-pregnant life, I’m so good about stopping, thinking about how I feel, and then reacting. Those things don’t happen in my close-to-third-trimester life. It’s frustrating. I feel psycho.

Greg has been working a million hours and it is making me nervous. He worked so much during Vada’s infancy that I was pretty much a single mom, alone with a colicky, always-crying baby for a year. We worked things out (obviously) but that time really took a toll on our marriage. It makes me sad just to think about it. When we decided to have this second baby, it was on terms that he wouldn’t work like that again. But I can see history starting to repeat itself and it’s freaking me out.  His business, which is always growing (thankfully!) seems to go through a bigger growth spurt every few years, and the signs are there! Working late every night… Working weekends… Coming home to shove food in his mouth and to say hi to Vada, then going back to work until the middle of the night… Coming home but then catching up on work on our home computer until late. It sucks. Hopefully this is all just part of my “nesting” phase and things will balance out at Press Press. (Cross your fingers for me, guys.)

But, in order to try to keep things positive around here… In happier “nesting” news, I bought baby her first clothing item- a cute little bunny hat from Baby Gap, which was too sweet to pass up. I also ordered some fabric to sew into crib sheets and got new curtains for her room. I’ll have to go through all of Vada’s baby clothes soon and see what else we need to get as far as onesies and things like that go. I’m excited to see all of those little summertime baby dresses again! Ruffle-butts! ♥