That necklace gives me butterflies! Too bad it’s WAY out of my price range. A girl can dream, right? Also, my sister originally purchased a similar pair of aqua cords from Anthro, but returned them once she found these Mossimo ones at Target for only $20! Just as cute but at a fraction of the price. I got a pair of studded loafers (Sam Edelman’s in black) earlier this year and almost returned them because I was a little nervous about them for some reason. SO glad I didn’t! The studded loafer trend seems to be everywhere for fall.
1. Jeffrey Campbell Martini Spike Loafer – Urban Outfitters
2. MBMJ Classic Q Shoulder Bag – Endless
3. Mossimo Supply Co. Courduroy Pant – Target
4. Beaded Phoenix Necklace – Anthropologie
5. Peplum Ponte Tank – Anthropologie
Vada has this little, pretty much indestructible digital camera that we got for her last year. I just uploaded all of the pictures onto my computer – hilarious! It’s so neat to see things from a three year old’s perspective. I hope she goes through at least a photography “phase” when she gets older. I think she’s got an eye for it ;)
1. Casper, our dog
2. Vada’s foot
3. Josh at Press Press
4. Some Nick Jr. and our dining room light
5. The Starbucks barista. Seeing this one made me laugh a lot because I remember her asking me, “Mama, can I take a picture of the guy?” :)
6. Snacks on the coffee table
8. One of her apps on the iPad
11. More snacks on the coffee table with books and a baby bottle
12. Bentley at Press Press
I got Vada some new shoes for back to school! She needed new ones because her old ones were getting filthy looking and because all of a sudden her feet grew an inch over night. I swear, I put her shoes on her feet one day and they were fine, then the next day I could barely squeeze them on! These kids and their growing…
I actually got her two new pairs of Toms: the sparkly mary janes up there (which are the cutest ever!) and another pale pink pair of classics, but the pink ones came messed up. One was dingy looking like it had been worn in the dirt, which I would have tolerated (they’re just going to get dirty anyway) but the other one had blue pen marks all over the top! So weird. Anyway, those are going back.
Vada starts preschool in a couple of weeks and I’m both excited and nervous. I’m so excited for her to play with other kids a few days a week. I think she’s going to have a blast! I’m looking forward to hearing everything she learns while she’s there. They have music and Spanish classes every day, which I think is so, so cool. I can’t wait to see the cute artwork she brings home and to go watch their Christmas performance this winter, which is sure to be hilarious. But I’m also just a little nervous to see how she behaves. Will she be cooperative and listen and get along with the other kids? But what I’m most nervous about though, are things she might pick up from other children. Please, Vada, be a goody two-shoes! ♥
We have these annoying climbing vines that try to take over the front of our house. They grow so fast and just appear out of nowhere! I cracked up when I walked outside this evening and saw this. Our porch is under attack! ♥
I have always envisioned myself as a stay at home mom. It’s what I’ve always wanted to be! But for some reason that vision totally skipped right over the infancy through preschooler period of my imaginary childrens’ lives. It was always more of me as a soccer mom/PTA-goer, toting around my elementary/middle schoolers. Bringing orange wedges to the game for all the kids to share. Brownie troop leader. Prepping Thanksgiving dinner with my tweens. Sitting around the table helping my high school kids with their science projects and proofreading essays. Making pancakes for everyone the morning after a slumber party.
Being the mom of a three year old has been hard. So hard. It’s probably the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life so far. I have so many qualities that aren’t compatible with the three year old mindset. For example! I’m not very good at make-believe. I’m strict. I expect good behavior at all times. I enjoy having a very tidy house. Having a three year old leaves me feeling completely inadequate most days.
I don’t know, maybe if I could just focus on being the stay-at-home mom of a three year old and 9 week old, things would be easier. But for some reason I’m not content being “just” a stay-at-home mom. I, for some reason, insist on being a work-at-home mom with too many hobbies and aspirations. I have to have my own business and a part time job and a blog and make quilts and knit and be an aspiring photographer and cook! Which leaves me feeling extra inadequate, because I can’t devote the necessary attention to any one of my obligations.
I feel stuck, guys.
The only thing Vada wanted to do alllll weekend was to take the car to the carwash, but it kept raining. I love the rain when I’m not obligated to leave the house. Typing that sentence just made me realize that I am actually obligated to leave the house today. Almost every single morning I say to myself, “Today is the day! I am not going anywhere. I’m going to have a lazy day inside.” Ha! Maybe tomorrow? Maybe not though. I actually like running around doing stuff – it keeps me happy. What I would like though is for both girls to take a nap at the same time so I could take one too. That would rule.
At least when Vada’s napping (and when it’s only Liza and me up in the middle of the night) I can sneak in some adult television. I just finished watching the first season of Girls on HBO, which I totally loved. I actually looked forward to waking up at 3 or 4am with the baby so I could watch it… I can’t wait for the next season! It took me a while to decide what to watch next. I was thinking Boardwalk Empire but decided it might be a little too violent for middle-of-the-night, all-by-myself viewing. So I finally landed on Mad Men, which my friend Lindsay suggested. I used to watch it when it first started, but I stopped for some reason and when I tried to start watching it again I had absolutely no idea what was going on. I’m looking forward to the drama!
I’ve also been entertaining myself by listening to Harry Potter audiobooks. (Which has almost caused me to start using British phrases that would make me sound ridiculous in the U.S. Like yesterday I thought to myself, “Where are those bloody scissors?!” Uhhh….) I’ve taken two trips to my parents’ so far this summer and the
books on tape audiobooks really help to pass the time. Although I started the series over when I got it on tape audio, I’ve actually read the first two books and part of number three, but I haven’t seen any of the movies. I wanted to watch the corresponding movie after I’d finished each book, but I can’t find the old ones available for rent anywhere. (I’ve checked Netflix, Apple TV and Redbox.) I guess I could wait until they all come out as a giant box set and watch all the movies in a row? What’s a girl to do? ♥